An ATC Card and Thoughts

I have been neglectful of anything really 'art' lately.

I find myself in a familiar place.

Afraid.

What exactly I fear, I'm not sure. Though it has a dose of "ohmygoodnesswhatifImessthisup" AND 'ohmygoodnesswhatifIDON"Tmessthisup".

It feels strange. I have a large piece started, at least largest I can quite get on paper. It daunted me for a long time. It stared at me with its blank whiteness and dared me to even try to convey what I wanted to convey on its smooth surface.

I took its challenge and started last weekend.

I haven't gotten very far. Its like there is an imp on the board telling me 'you won't get very far before you ruin this'.

Why is it so hard for me to let go and not worry? What is truly the worst thing that could happen?

I have been able to finish some little Artist Trading Cards. These, I seem to not worry about at all.


"Harvest Goddess Gusty"


"Fly Skull"

I love the My Little Pony inspired piece. I want to do more. The Fly Skull, not so much, but I was playing around with a paper sample.

I know I worry to put myself out there, in any form. What I really want to create and do.

I have put my heart and soul into many things, many times, only to have it torn apart.

That fear is stopping me.

I suppose, it didn't stop me from loving, should it really stop me from creating?